Hi, you probably know me as the girl who escaped the cult most notably associated with Shen Yun, and I've been on here talking about my experiences within the cult since July.

The first video that I posted got 3.6 million views as of right now, and that absolutely shocked me. Up until then I had been keeping everything that I had gone through a secret from all of my friends, acquaintances, teachers, because I wasn't sure how people would react.

You see, for the longest time my worst nightmare was having people realize that I spent 18 years, believing that aliens invented the cell phone, and that a man in New York could read my thoughts, and I was afraid that that reputation would follow me forever.

But then I realized that there are worse fears to have when my mother got cancer after ignoring years and years of symptoms because the cult discouraged us from seeking medical care. And my mother passed away from her cancer just before Thanksgiving.

I initially joined the cult when I was 5 years old because I believed that it saved my mother's life all those years ago. And now I am firmly against it and speaking up about it because it took my mother's life away.

I'm not just talking about the physical aspect of it all, her body, the cancer, her health. I'm talking about the time that we could have spent together celebrating her life instead of being exploited by a cult that was using us for our labor, the cult indoctrinated us to believe that love for family was a worldly attachment that we needed to get rid of.

So, we didn't spend the time that we could have expressed how we really felt for each other.

I would be underestimating if I said that 2024 was an emotional roller coaster for me between my mother's condition and me finally fully deconstructing my entire belief system of nearly two decades.

I am surprised that I survived it all. and I do not think that I would have been able to fully deconstruct without TikTok. The comments that I received in my videos has made me realize that what I went through is not normal but it's also not uncommon.

For 18 years I battled this by myself mostly as a child. And now I finally have a community of people who validate my experience.

But with the possible incoming TikTok ban, this video is potentially my goodbye message to you. The reason why I have been posting solely on TikTok, is because I know that there are no Falun Gong members here, and they will not harass me or my family. You do not find Shen Yun ads here even though they are fucking everywhere, because Falun Gong members believe that TikTok is run by the Chinese government. This has allowed me a safe place to talk about everything.

And due to my mother's passing, my family is currently in a very fragile state, especially my father who is desperately holding on to the beliefs of the cult, thinking that it will save my mother in the afterlife.

And honestly, I cannot blame him. She was his soulmate in every single way. He was there for her until her very last moments. Any kind of harassment from the cults could be absolutely devastating for my father's mental health.

So, in the case that TikTok gets banned in the US, I will not be reposting any other videos on other social media apps.

 

I am so grateful and appreciative of all the support I have received in the past couple months. It's crazy how much can change in just a short amount of time; my mind has been opened because of you; I am a completely different person. Thank you so much and Happy New Year!

Source Link: https://www.tiktok.com/@workplace_doodles/video/7454973312028921118